Ever Have a “Binge” Day?

OMG, I’m so having one of those days where I literally feel like a bottomless pit. I’m not sure if I just started the day off wrong and am now paying for it with an unrelenting appetite from hell, or whether this is my typical, couple times a month, non stop hunger day.  You probably all know exactly what I’m talking about too. 

It’s like you know you should be full and satisfied by all the stuff you’ve been piling in your mouth, and yet, either because of a blood sugar or hormonal issue, or perhaps because of being mentally bored, you keep eating, and eating and eating….and…you get the point.

Let me tell you how I started off my day, and how it snowballed into a pure carb day, and consuming a whole lot of carbs at that!  I started the day with a large bagel.  Stop right there before you chastise though, because at least it was a whole grain bagel.  Well, go ahead and chastise now, because guess what I had on top of that bagel?  A couple nice pats of butter!  And not the low fat or low salt variety either.  Nope, it was real, hard, bonified dairy butter!

So with a heavily buttered bagel starting my day, I knew I was in trouble by the feeling of malaise that set in immediately after I finished it.  It was like I felt like I needed dessert or something, which if you are a carb freak, you know is fairly common after eating carb loaded meals, no matter the time of day.

I held off the “dessert” part though, and was  good girl and avoided the vending machine at work to get some M&M’s (although those did come later), and instead opted for the delicious, huge nectarine I had brought with me.  For anyone who is not familiar with their fruits, a nectarine is a hairless version of a peach basically, except I happen to like the flavor and texture of nectarines better.

I was ok right after the nectarine, but about 45 minutes later, I was craving sugar, like refined, bad sugar, so I dug into my desk and found a small handful of jelly belly jelly beans.  Still feeling unsatisfied I decided to just wait it out til lunch.  At lunch I had what I brought from home, a large serving of brown rice and beans, topped with petite diced tomatoes.  It was delish as usual, but I still wasn’t satisfied, so after I went to the gym at work and exercised, I had a huge bag of honey mustard pretzels.  Do you think I might benefit from a good carb blocker now?  I’m sure it couldn’t hurt!

I’m currently rounding out the day with a bag of plain M&M’s, and I’m hoping this’ll do it, because Lord knows my poor thighs were just beginning to enjoy a bit of slimming down from previous efforts! Hopefully I can control my ravenous appetite at dinner, I’ve probably already consumed over 2000 calories today!